I desperately want to kill myself?

Hi, I can not specify about how much I feel the same was you do. It's obvious that the main reason that you are sad is that you have moved and you are now in an unfamiliar enviorment and you're confused about how your sisters can just fit in and you think that you are different and that you're sad because you don't have friends.. I've lived in the same place all my life, I still have no friends. I have constantly thought about suicide.. I have self-harmed. Then one day, my mother grabbed me by my wrist. She saw what I had been doing. she broke down in tears. In that moment I realised that I could not do that to my family. I then went to the doctors and he sorted me out a counsellor. I went to him reguraly and literally poured out my soul to him. I thought that he couldn't help. I didn't think anyone could help me. But I was wrong. Please, don't give up hope yet.